Elul Ema
A friend suggested this title after I hosted a very haimish and ver belated birthday party for my oldest child who was literally in tears after I fell off the organizational horse and had his family birthday party be his only birthday party this year. Once it got so late that I gave up and threw him "half-birthday party" instead, complete with half a candle and singing of half of "Happy Birthday." He liked it, and I could kind of get away with it since his real B-Day is in the summer when so many people here are away that winter kind of makes more sense. Oh well, it was novel and cute and kind of Lewis Caroll-esque, but I don't really want to do it every year.
I always wondered at parents who enhusiastically threw elaborate birthday parties for their one year olds. Sure, you'll have pictures and you'll see your friends, but I don't love going to those events -- why would I host one? It's certainly lost on the one-year-old. I was so grateful to the moms and dads who dutifully carpooled their invited children to our home with a beautifully wrapped gift to make my son happy and feel celebrated.
But, I am recognizing finally that my children are now reaching the age that they notice if their birthday comes and goes and gets treated like mine or their dad's. We are quite happy to wish each other a happy day and maybe have a glass of wine or watch a movie after the kids are asleep. The whole party, pizza, decorations, cake, games, goody-bags type event is not really fun for me, but I suppose it was when I was seven.
So why the resistance? Do I expect them to be more grown up than they are? Why would I want that? I have noticed that I value independence in them -- being able to get themselves ready for bed or help themselves to a snack and that I get annoyed if I perceive them to be whiney and acting younger than their age, but there's a reason for each behavior and it would help them more, I'm sure , if I just patiently responded to each request with a yes, or a no, and an explanation if one was called for. Hmm.
Next up, my much rehearsed (in my head, of course) bedtime post...